Our big brother Sedat is gone. Last night after 40 hours without sleep, I collapsed into bed with Ilayda, both Okans and Deniz. It occurred to me then that this may still be a nightmare - I went to bed in a foul mood because of work, and had a horrible, detailed nightmare. But then I awoke this morning, curled up with Big Okan, Sedat's son, and VROOM CRASH a ton of bricks fell on me with the realization that he is gone and we are all just devastated. I really mean devestated, destroyed. And that's nothing compared to how our sweet Ozlem is feeling. I go between shock and overwhelming grief, back and forth like a swing...
I know there will be much more to come on the blog - how the kids are, what they are saying and more. Right now I can only cry and say how much we miss you, Sedat Abi. However you conceive it, pray for us and him, everyone, please, we need it.
Posted by alisacat at 1:36 AM
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